stubbon me?

i just cant let it go though i have tried many times. the struggling made me like a crazy woman, happy in the morning, sad at night; sad in the morning, happy at night. what m i doing?

i m not sure if i will still happy when the things happen.because, it is so meaningless to me now, how heartbreaking to say so. but i m serious. will u still be happy when the things happened a long time after the time it was told to be happened? 

why a i keep yelling everyday? it not because i really want it now. just because i want to shout for the disappointment. shout shout shout yell yell yell blame blame blame

when..

would be happy happy happy time. 

let go? never count? i tired. but that feeling attack me every time right after  i thoguth i have let it go. everything can heal now? no i guess. though it happen now. why? cos things should happen at the right time, or else, theres never a word called " timing". its all about timing. isnt it?

i guess, have already missed the right time. 

what a pity.