Today, my friend asked if I could accept that I m single in the rest of my life.
I hesitated, had some thought, n said : No.
i m not scared of loneliness now... or i should say , i dont feel lonely when i m alone.
i did learn how to be alone. n i knew that ppl should have their own world sometimes.
i knew, i used to stick to ppl around me.
but now, i know how to be alone.
i could go running without any companion,
i could sit in the starbucks, enjoy the green tea latte for the afternoon,
i could go to the crowded n get into my favorite restaurant, enjoy the lunch myself....
i even tried to watch the movie by my own last time, just that cinema didt show the one i wish to watch...
i knew, n i love to be alone in some way, i do enjoy my personal time. i learned it.
my friend's question popped up to me again when i back to home.
i asked myself as well, what if i m alone int he rest of my life, i mean, no life partner..
i then remembered one thing,
i had a crush on the boy sitting in the next row when i m k3!
k3...say 5 ,6 yrs old?!
k3 wo!! k3 就識暗戀人wo!
i was born to be "single"?! i dont believe so!
i was born to be a person with "love"!
ha, so.. again, i dont believe that i was born to be "single"!
so.... i dont think "single" is my destiny, i think.
(of cos, have to ask God for the final answer :P time will show anyway )
of cos i dont have to hurry or what,
cos its not the right time for me to start another love at this moment.
jsut... i m not born to be "single", i still think so.
yea...this is what i finalized my thought.
:)
To anyone who read this, pls keep me in yr prayer