loop of mess

是一種什麼的狀態.
混亂感來訪. 沉澱了的又再晃起.
一切又"彷彿"回到最初.

是什麼感覺,
在明白中出現惱怒, 一切整理好的又都散開.
然後爭論間又見明白...
好多好多, 是什麼的感覺

是什麼的關係.
說要去關心, 卻又再叫人痛心.
昨晚再一次離開了, 找找找找....有找不著的感覺.
陪伴我的是眼淚..
開始覺得過份放任自己的情感,
是時候收起多餘的淚.
太累了. 也又太過份了.

既然如此, 是什麼關係,
又再有什麼關係?

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Both of them said I m dealing good with my stuff.
I could managed n handled well, leading by the rational thought.
I feel that b4 as well. Was feeling good to see the progress,
could really sense myself were moving on!
well.... everything has a sharp brake all in a sudden.
Mess everything up again in my mind.
That was exactly what Ms Ho told me.
observed n experienced, tired enough

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well.... too much though, n too mess.
enough enough
easy easy